I wanted to take a brief moment away from fiction and address how I am feeling. Sadness and anger are swirling about me and I wanted to express it in thought.
For all accounts and purposes this has been a year I would like to forget. My heroes gone, my hopes dashed to the rocks, and an uncaring world cast me away. Leaving me to the fates. This may seem like tragedy, but I see it as opportunity. Opportunity to take inspiration from my fallen heroes. To take a piece of them into me and become something else. Become someone else’s hero. To help my heroes live on through me. Through my actions. Find the best qualities of those I admire and make them a part of me. I do have friends, and family that care about me, and I take inspiration from them as well. OK world. You have thrown down the gauntlet. Challenge accepted!
I will leave you with a few quotes from one of my heroes. A strong and amazing woman that I did not realize had influenced so much of who I am until she was gone.
Carrie Fisher —
“Stay afraid, but do it anyway. What’s important is the action. You don’t have to wait to be confident. Just do it and eventually the confidence will follow.”
“I heard someone say once that many of us only seem able to find heaven by backing away from hell. And while the place that I’ve arrived at in my life may not precisely be everyone’s idea of heavenly, I could swear sometimes — I hear angels sing.”
“Resentment is like drinking a poison and waiting for the other person to die.”
“No motive is pure. No one is good or bad, but a hearty mix of both. And sometimes life actually gives to you by taking away.”
END…or just the beginning.